Before I do anything else I'm going to take a moment to talk about routine and how it can be a blessing and a curse. I've touched on this subject before but with me returning to work after the summer holidays I found myself mulling it over once again. This week I strived to encourage friends and family in the education sector not to give up on books simply because the grueling routines were back. I'm passionate about making time for reading no matter how hard that might be.
But that's the funny thing about advice, it's easy to offer / tough to take.
I haven't read a thing all week.
That's not to say my week has been overly difficult, it's had a couple of challenges but it's had some beautiful moments too. But the hectic pace had left me exhausted and by yesterday, when a health complaint of mine reared it's ugly head again I'd just about given up on everything. I was simply in one of those moods where I was feeling lethargic and unable to even focus on the simple task of reading much less anything else.
This morning arrived with me still feeling poorly and sorry for myself, I reached a dismal acceptance. My blog would not get done this week. I'd failed at the one thing I was desperate to see finished.
Now it's at this point I have to relate a valuable yet painful lesson that I've been learning for the past few years (it's a life lesson that, to be fair to me, some people never learn). This lesson is this: 'don't expect the world to come and bail you out when things are at crisis point'. I woke up this morning miserable, praying that someone or something would make me happy, just as I've done many times before. But happiness isn't something that comes from others. Why should I put that pressure on the world around me? My loved ones don't deserve it, after all they're just trying to get on with their own lives and be who they are.
No, happiness is what I make it. To get through today I would have to turn inwards, summon every ounce of inner strength and work on improving myself and my situation in the hope that I could make myself happy. As the saying goes, heaven helps those who help themselves (forgive me if I've got that saying wrong).
Now another thing I've come steadily to believe more and more is that, if you've love in your heart and the will to keep trying, the universe will have your back. It's a personal belief that has grown dearer and dearer to me as I've grown emotionally. It's important to keep love in your heart, love for others, for the world and most importantly self love. How can I expect others to prop me up if I can not love and support myself?
So with both my lesson and my faith in mind this morning I faced the end of my blog world by systematically going through my 'to read' pile and cross referencing it with the dwindling list of challenges left to me.
Then there it was, a book chosen not for the challenge at all but as an extra to read because I'm a fan of the author. I honestly sat staring at it for a moment, a book that I'd chosen purely out of self love which served no purpose other than to be something of a joy for me to read.
A book that by a startling coincidence could easily be used to fill not one, or two, but three separate challenges on my list!!!! And it was one I wanted to read desperately! Thanks universe!
The author, Geraldine McCaughrean first came to my attention with her officially recognised sequel to the legendary story of Peter and Wendy by J.M Barrie. She won the right to create a sequel to the J.M. Barrie's original in a centenary competition and her book 'Peter Pan in Scarlet' did not disappoint, selling over 30, 000 copies of it's initial release and then being translated into 37 different languages.
That however, is not the story I sat down to read today. Why am I holding off before revealing the title of the book? Well because this was my very first self pitying thought when it occurred to me that I wouldn't get my blog finished.
Where the World Ends is based on a true story that sadly has very little in terms of fact to go off (due to the age of the story and lack of evidence behind it). But happen it did and that lends it a tangible dramatic grit that many fictional stories, no matter how incredible, can lack.
It is set in 1727 around the island of St Kilda, part of an archipelago way out past the island of Skye in the north west of Scotland. To be more specific the entire story focuses on a group of three men and nine boys who sail out from the island to the local (I use that term loosely) island stacs where they perform the yearly duty of killing and harvesting birds and wildlife for the purpose of food, trade and so on. Every year a group will venture out to the warrior stac and remain there for up to three weeks while they wait for their kin to come and collect them.
Only in this particular summer three weeks become five, then seven and it doesn't take long for the group to realise that they are stranded out on this stac with no help coming to them. Thus begins a struggle for survival and hope for deliverance from their fate. They have the solid fears of isolation, possible starvation, and lack of equipment to contend with and lets not forget the big two demons, inner rivalry and insanity. As time goes on cracks in the group begin to widen, particularly when one of them announces that he's seen the end of days and that really, they've been left stranded in the world by the angels who've rounded everyone else up for judgement.
Quill, the book's central character does an epic job of holding things together, telling stories to the younger boys to keep their minds active, even comforting the older men who break when they succumb to the harsh reality of the fact that no one will come to their rescue. What follows is a tumultuous existence, the group battling the elements and each other as the story winds up to a cataclysmic and tragic conclusion.
The book has it's obvious villains, the sanctimonious Col Cane who thinks he's in touch with God himself and the biggest boy, bully Kenneth who works to make others' lives a misery. But really they're small dramas when compared with the mammoth efforts of the boys to remember their own identities and their places in the world. Hope, faith and determination are the biggest emotions in play here, emotions I felt echoed in my soul as I raced to read the book from start to finish. I have promised myself that now it's served a purpose I'll read it again and take my time, just to savour it properly.
It's 336 pages are split into chapters of varying length which is based largely on the books pace, the biggest of the chapters are in the middle section of the book. The language is fantastic I found myself dashing to grab a notepad to write down quotes! It's hard not to pick up on a visceral piece of imagery such as this:
"The August dawns sliced their way clearly through the horizon."
or better still this:
"Remembered pictures are like water, the harder you try to hold on to them, the more surely they run away... ...it is unbearable to lose the memory of a face."
or how about this?
"After the world ends, only music and love will survive." Sigh! How romantic!!!
But the staggering thing that marks this book out is the vocabulary! I like to pride myself on being a bit of a wordsmith, but when I find myself reaching for the dictionary or calling lazily out to my husband in another room to check on the meaning of words every few mintues then I know I've been sufficiently challenged! Younger readers might struggle with the language altogether as the combination of extremely varied vocabulary and occasional rural speech might be tough. I'd encourage those who find it a chore to persevere.
There is the very rare use of a swear word and several hints at things that might be deemed inappropriate for younger readers too. I'd personally recommend it to readers aged 11 and up. Though I'd certainly encourage teachers to read it to younger classes if they don't mind skipping one or two words or scenes (I know this might lose some of the flavour of the book but better that then not to share it at all).
Quill's journey through this story and his growth from boyhood into manhood is a deeply emotional one, his faith and love at times being all that stands between life and death. He is every inch the hero of the story, his fortitude providing a rock of shelter for all others, even though he somehow manages to feel responsible for things that go wrong. Guilt is just one of the many burdens he carries, until he is so haunted by his demons that it's clear he will never be the same again. Most importantly, the book stresses his need to depend on himself to get through, as none of the others in the group could carry the weight that he has to. But that doesn't stop them from coming to his aid, so when he needs to work alone he does, but he also is wise enough to take help when it's offered.
I can learn a lesson from him. Now to move forward with that love in my heart, inner fortitude and clearer approach to getting this blog done!
This is book 36 of my 52 book list and an inspirational work of fiction based upon a true story.
Book Title: Where the World Ends
Author: Geraldine McCaughrean
Published: 2018
Pages:336
Suitable for: children aged 11 upwards
Interesting words: remnants, sumptuous, manse, stolid, belligerent, sanctimonious, ineffable, concatenation, cleits, I could go on and on!